Unfair

Life's unfair but I deal yet I'm on the edge of my chair wanting my life to be better. I can't have what I want I've never gotten what I want and even though I throw my life futher away it seems I'll never get what I want and its sad. No matter how much I try I'm still put down and made to be nothing. I just want one thing out of life and thats a little respect. After this day I see thats something I'll never recieve. I don't understand anything in life no more I don't get why I must suffer even more. I just want the pain to stop and so I have became numb. All I do now is cry, why? cause it sooths the hurt and yet it does nothing. My heart and soul feels dead inside but I don't know what to do, I don't know how not to cry.

All Around Me! Part2

I wish I could describe the sky, the clouds slowly passing by.

The tree trembling in the wind, but aren’t scared cause they know they can swim.
A light far away shimmers chased by a very loud sound.
It makes me sad to know that I can not fly because I would chase the sound through out the sky. Who said I was only being shy?
I just don’t want it to pass me by. Torn from my heart I desire to be by its side, that roaring sound that I couldn’t see with my own eyes.
After it was gone I looked up to see blue eyes stare at me. It looked so peaceful and full of ease but soon it turned gray and made my warmth leave.
The shadows all game to start their game. I didn’t want to play this game because even if I win losing will still be the case.
Then I realized the sky was in pain. It cause the shadows had come they were to blame.
The shadows made faces and had many complaints, cause the sky to roar and cry a fierce rain.
I could not say a word so away I went; the fierce rain just could not be tamed.

Working On.

I'm not doing a poem today just wanted to share that I'll be coming out with a song soon so keep a look out for it. I'm working really hard on it even though I'm shy when it comes to using my voice. I can't wait for people to here it and tell me what they think. Also I'm not going to be bloging every day I'm moving to every other day its easier for me till after June since that's my birthday month.

Chinese Etrology that really eplains me!

Your Chinese Sign:

The Rabbit or Cat

The RABBIT … THE VIRTUOUS RABBIT Mantra: Always prepared to help the world. The reserved Rabbit is very intelligent, intuitive and in touch with nature. Generous by definition, Rabbits can also be afraid of their own power. People trust them easily and admire them, but Rabbits themselves are cautious and discreet. Everywhere they go they create peace for others … but compromise their own inner harmony with sudden mood changes and fear. Rabbits are full of heart and love to take care of the wounded body, heart and soul -- they are gentle and kind.

Your Sun Sign:

Gemini

Sun 16° Gemini 10'

What's a sun sign?

Element: Air Key Planet: Mercury

The Twins go everywhere together, hand-in-hand, symbolizing your dual nature. Our world comes in pairs: good and evil, male and female, in and out, yin and yang -- and you Geminis are living proof. Some might say you are an entanglement of paradoxes, but the truth is that you have an easy acceptance of opposites. Your world is one of duality. You can like this and that, one thing and its opposite. It's like you see your world through a radio and you can tune experiences and points of view in and out as your interests change. Motto: "A rolling stone gathers no moss." Greatest Strength: Your curiosity about a variety of interests Possible Weakness: Distracting yourself from what is most important

Your Moon Sign:

Libra

Moon 17° Libra 32'

What's a moon sign?

The Moon in a mental air sign like Libra tends to bring objectivity to the mysterious world of emotions. This can give you a clarity about feelings that keeps you from getting swallowed up in them… but it can also make it harder to tune into your own needs. You're so conditioned to making others feel at ease that you may not deal with what's going on inside of yourself, especially if you can't put it into words. The peace and harmony that you desire is very positive as long as you're not stifling yourself to achieve it. Fairness is not just something you give to others… it's something that you need for yourself to have the kind of relationships that you want. Motto: "I'll compromise my needs to fulfill yours." Greatest Strength: Being objective about your emotions Possible Weakness: Avoiding emotional commitment

Your Rising Sign:

Gemini

Ascendant 16° Gemini 51'

What's a rising sign?

Having Gemini Rising is like owning a universal pass key that gets you in everywhere you want to go. That's because you can adapt yourself to all different kinds of people and situations. You instinctively pick up on the prevailing mood and find a way to fit in easily. You tend to be chatty, freely expressing yourself in ways that are pleasant for others to hear. You're open to sharing your thoughts without coming across as bossy or judgmental. You've got a light touch that helps you make your point in a roundabout way, rather than producing resistance by coming on too strong. And you don't appear to be demanding, but tend to have such an outgoing friendly manner that you're welcome just about everywhere. Motto: "Let's talk about it." Greatest Strength: Your ability to adapt to a variety of circumstances Possible Weakness: Providing more information than necessary

What is a "Sun Sign?"

Your Sun Sign is a key part of an astrological chart, and represents your general temperament. It is determined simply by the day and month of your birth and provides the answer to the common question "What sign are you?"

Your Sun Sign represents your basic individuality, who you are when you are alone. This is a very important piece of your astrological profile to be sure, but it is a small part -- there are hundreds of other variables to take into account. It is a mistake to think that knowing about your Sun Sign is going to deliver information about how you process things, interact with the world or deal with emotions and relationships. These and other aspects of your being are reflected by other heavenly bodies and how they all are "aspected" to each other.

Think of it this way: imagine you are looking down a long hallway and see someone at a distance. You're asked to describe the person, but all you can see is they're wearing a red sweatshirt. As you walk closer, you're able to discern that they"ve got blonde hair. Walk closer still and you can see that it's a woman. Closer still and you see freckles on her face.

Astrology operates in much the same way. Knowing the month and day of your birth is to see the most obvious element of an astrological profile -- the Sun Sign. But take a step closer, or add other information that's vital to an astrologer, such as the person's year of birth, exact time of birth and location of birth, and a story unfolds, layer by marvelous layer, detail by detail.

It's worth mentioning that daily horoscopes, the most commonly recognized form of astrology in the world, often appear to offer only a vague reflection of a person's Sun Sign. As you can see, there are many working parts to your astrological makeup, and writing any forecast without benefit of specific birth data is much like being asked to describe someone in great detail from a distance.

That being said, horoscopes can be a wonderful tool for getting the general astrological "lay of the land," and a good daily astrologer is expert at keeping us apprised of general conditions. We're extremely proud to feature professional astrologer Rick Levine and his daily horoscopes on the Tarot.com site, and we hope they'll inspire you to learn more about astrology and your own astrological makeup.

A full astrological report will not only interpret your Sun Sign, but will also tell you how it affects and is affected by your particular Rising Sign, Moon Sign and the other elements of your birth chart.

What is a "Moon Sign?"

Every 2 and 1/3 days, the Moon moves from one sign to the next, taking a total of 28 days to do a complete trip around the zodiac, stopping for a visit in one of each of the twelve signs of the zodiac before starting the same journey all over again.

If your Rising Sign represents your "external" self, it can be said that your Moon Sign represents your "inner" or "emotional" self, or the way you handle your emotions and the way you truly feel, whether you reveal it or not. To most astrologers, the moon is also about your intuition, your inner vulnerabilities, your fears as well as the things that can stir your heart. As is the case with the Ascendant, your Moon Sign may be entirely different from your Sun Sign, and reading your daily horoscope for your Moon Sign can also provide yet more insight into your personal astrological makeup.

A full astrological report will not only interpret your Moon Sign, but will also tell you how it affects and is affected by your particular Sun Sign, Rising Sign and the other elements of your birth chart.

What is a "Rising Sign?"

Your Rising Sign or "Ascendant" reflects that 1/12th slice of the sky that was ascending on the Eastern horizon the moment you were born, and is located on the cusp of the First House of your astrological chart. Knowing your birth time is a necessary piece of information to determine your Rising Sign.

Your Rising Sign is an important part of your astrological chart, because it represents the way you project yourself outward, the way you're seen and perceived by the rest of the world and the general "impression" that you make on others. It is frequently the case that a person will have a Rising Sign that is entirely different from their Sun Sign, and learning about your Rising Sign, and even reading your daily horoscope for that sign, can provide greater insight into your personal astrological makeup.

A full astrological report will not only interpret your Rising Sign, but will also tell you how it affects and is affected by your particular Sun Sign, Moon Sign, and the other elements of your birth chart.

All Around Me! Part 1

The wind blew gently without making a sound. The breeze felt warm as a summer the, though it is autumn.

The leaves are not falling and the days are not changing they are always the same.
This is what I thought on that faithful day. My eyes can not see what could not be seen. It was if I was in a dream.
Time passed me by slowly each day.
The thoughts I had of love weren't there anymore. Misguidance on my part for simply just entering your domain without knowing anything, I feel so lame.
I did it all on a whim without even knowing your name. Truthfully I could and probably should ask but would anything really change.
No! It will never last nothing will ever change. I feel so hurt, I've never felt this pain, it feels like I was slain by an unknown danger.
Slain by your hands although you never touched me it all seems so plain. It was almost as if we were playing and evil game.
I found it very fun but to lose.....I think I'm done. Its not that gave in I just want to wait till the next time I can have some more fun.
Next time I'll bring a friend to simply guide me, I get lost so easily in this game we play. It gives me a feeling that my skies have all turned gray.

Back Again

Here we are once more trying out this relationship score.
From your mouth I heard the words : I'm sorry lets start over."
Can it be that simple though, should I trust you with my heart once more.
Can I depend on you not to hurt me as you've done once before.
You seed I carried without your knowledge and lost it just the same.
You did know of all my suffering and pain. I wanted to tell you, I truly did, but I was scared of what you might say.
Not that it matter cause I still couldn't be with you anyway.
Now your back and I stand with this decision to keep you as long as I can or just leave it be.
I choose to try, to try to gain you love and if I fail I can only move on.
A friend you'll always be, though, in my heart forever more.

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