Tomorrow

1 MORE DAY!!!!!!!
Tomorrows post will be at night or sunday so I can tell you about the rest of the week and how my day went.

2 more Days

2 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!

Counting Down

Out of all the things that have happened in the last few weeks I now turn my attention to my birthday where I will now be 21. I feel so happy yet sad cause I have accomplished so much yet nothing. I love how my life is yet hate it. I still move on, though. I try to surpass my feelings about things but I can't. I have found myself crying for both good and bad. I have put myself in a world of my own. I think its nice in my world, its a place where I can be whatever I want to be. My views of things have nothing to do with anyone else but myself. I listen to no one and follow no rules. I have made my own path and I followed it wrong. Yeap I said wrong, why? Well because I didn't do anything I set out to do but I'm still happy. I guess you can say I'll always be happy even after death. Why do you ask? Its simple, cause I lived.

Overwhelmed

I slept almost all yesterday and still feel sleepy today a little but thats ok cause at least life feels a little easier. I've been happy about some things yet sad about others but as of last night I decided to become a little stronger. I realized a few days ago I haven't even been sick just stressed. Its sad I thought I was pass the whole stress thing but I guess not. I see now I get stressed about a lot of stuff in my life. It feels strange but I get depressed way to easily to so now I've decided that I want to come my life down a lot more. I don't know what has my life so wound up cause I don't really do much but I've made this decision and I'm sticking with it. I think I'm losing my hopes and desires in life and for one thing it may be good in the long run. Maybe my dreams and goals are to far fetched so I'm setting some new smaller ones for myself. I hope when I do this my life will at least become a little easier and manageable for me. If it doesn't then I will just keep trying till I get it right. With any luck maybe I'll get things in the right direction one day soon.

Youngster

Ha, in my mind I didn't think he could do it. He provided everything, especially the pleasure. Many days I waited seriously anticipating rather or not you'd bring me excitement. Until the day in February when you called me out. To be honest I was scared, on many levels, you could have imagined the thoughts that raced in my head about you. I laid across the bed wondering how life could be so great since everything was going my way. When you pushed in I thought I'd cry from all the joy that raced inside. The intense overwhelming enjoyment I had for you was crucial thats why it was hard for me to say it to you.......That even though we're not as one you're still in my heart, cause maybe one day I'll see clearly and that's when I'll know I should have kept you from the start.

None

Again there will be no post on Sundays.